Wednesday, May 23, 2018

Indecisive thought

It's never to late to greet happy new year 2018, right? even I am 5 months late for updating my blog.
This time I won't list down any resolution but I will push myself towards the better me instead of getting skinny. I do blogging when I feel like I want to share some of my deep feeling through words, not just for review or showing how passionate I am with fashion. And now it is a perfect time for me to share some of my deep thought during the last few months.



One month from now, I will be twenty five years old - and to be honest, I am still lost in this complicated mind. What do I want? Who I want to be? What can I do? Am I in the right path? Is this what I want? The future seems scary but what should I do? Am I ready for this?. Growing old doesn't mean I know what I want to be.. And taking a leap seems scary even people often say.. it is your time to not be in the comfort zone. Time doesn't repeat, you can't go back to the past. The only thing I am sure about is, I have to travel & save up & do my bucket list (watching concert). I know I am not that typical 25, that you expect that I am the adult and I know much more than the kids just like what I imagine when I am still a kid/teenager. But it is proven that I am very wrong..

Another things that bother me is people perspective of judging. It's kinda hard for me to accept, if what people thought of me is wrong. I know it very well again now, wherever you go - we will always be judge even what we do is right. There is no right or wrong. People judge. Come on Veronyca you can do it, let it be and only you who know it is right and try to take it positively instead sucking myself to negativity.

Hairstyle, I cut my hair shorter and loving it. Still into grey and purple but I figure it is better to save my Money for something more useful and I am kinda like my current hair too. As dualipa style is my inspiration aww and I'm liking her hairstyle and fashion and music.

I am struggling with beauty product, really its hard for me to find a proper skin care that will suit my skin. removing blemish and acne scar, oh my god. I have committed and my a promise to myself, if I ever find a skincare that can make my face back to normal - I am gonna keep promoting it and do my very honest review. My skin type is combination, more to oily. And the ordinary is not suitable for me.. which is sad and it makes my skin breakout.

Early marriage is not my thing. I won't settle till I get what I want and be successful (more money). I will never be a housewife - I just can't .. unless I am marrying a prince lol. Cause having you own money is better, you save and you spend on what you want, instead of asking your husband to pay for everything you want (it's not good). I am learning a lot from my boyfriend of who taught me how to be independent women and a women with career & goal.

Fashion, some people think I am weird in my choice of outfit but I am not. The only thing that keep me lively in this city and working is my passion in fashion and photography. I am more active in my Instagram, and it is wonderful how this passion lead me to know more about people who share the same passion as me and the way we wore and style our fashion is just free. I get to know wonderful people and learning more about people with no age limit. And getting older will not stop me for exploring and styling my kind of own fashion - I will keep sharing my passion and yes I am working on my youtube video very soon (my first lookbook video) with the help of my friend Cinthy Kwok. Yuhuuuu.. ok I will I will let you guys know once its up !

People, I am still grateful of all the people around me and still stay with me through up and down of my twenties. And personally, I never forget the people (my close friend) that who makes me feel free and how to be my real self even in my worst mood or happy. You guys are the best, in your twenties - it is really hard to find a true friend. And I am grateful I have them.

Me and Jessy Xu


Crossing the road, ok I am afraid of crossing the road alone. Before reaching 25, I will share my current lookbook ootd shot with my talented friend Bryan Jonathan ! And THANKS to him, I got to try something new like our current shot with the background of our hometown "Medan". People who look at us will think.. we are crazy. Are they not afraid of getting rob? and if we actually take care of our hometown, everything is not scary as it seems and our crime rates will not as high as now. Walking the streets in our hometown even scare us, and all of us prefer using grab/taxi to anywhere instead of walking down the pedestrian path. If you look at around, some corner of our city is not that slack and here is the shot that I get with the background of our city "Medan". (fyi: it is so hard to get a shot in the zebra cross, red traffic light - these people don't care and just go straight pass the traffic.."speechless"). ok, here it is:






What I wear
Top: Monki
Skirt: Pomelo Fashion
Bag: Pomelo Fashion
Blazer: KelnTai
Shoes: Vans










All photos credit to my talented friend Joe >>> follow him on instagram@joeytanjaya  ! (Yes, for business inquiries, you can dm him directly). Thank you for creative ideas and taking the best ootd shot !

Till next time ! Perhaps some travel post? will see.. (off to my hectic job again).
XOXO
Veronyca Sufry